I still ...

I still cry myself to sleep,

Every night, on my bed.

I still dream of your return,

Making me smile, instead.

I still remember everything about you,

Every detail, I can't erase.

I still remember that day,

The way you comfort me and that look on your face.

I still miss you when something good happen,

Cause I know that if you were here, I would smile.

I still miss you when something bad happen,

Cause I know that you would make everything worthwhile.

I still write down things to you,

Talking with you whenever I need.

I still say to myself, I'm fine,

But in the inside, I constantly bleed.

I still smile when I hear your voice,

But then tears always follow.

I still can't believe you're really gone,

I can't bare another lonely tomorrow.

I still tell you how much I love you,

"I miss you" I keep whispering in the phone.

I still try to make you feel I'm not hurting,

I hang up and realize, from now on I'm all alone.

I still miss every word I used to tell you,

And I wonder if you miss it too.

I still wonder have you ever realize,

I would have given up my life for you.

I still ask myself should I disappear,

Would it be better for you, if I stayed away?

I still wonder if you know that your voice,

Is the only thing that helps me to go through another day?

I still do everything you wanted me to,

I swear,everything...except the frown.

I still behave to match your expectations,

I don't want to ever let you down.

I still can't move on,

Honestly, I don't want to let go.

I still hold on to your memories,

Cause, you are all that I know.

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wrote this a few months ago ..... why ? that i too dont know....
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